Cause Ive Been Thinking about forever

Last night, I could have had what I call a sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare. What do I mean by this? While I was in this dream, everything felt so right and real. I realized it was only just a dream when I woke up. I dreamed about my ex of 8 months. Come on, Nathan. Why am I still thinking about her? Sometimes I still dont know if I hated her or loved her after the breakup. I have to be stronger! Man up boi